Monday, February 25, 2008

Art

Have always thought that the preface to Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray is probably the best appraisal of art I have ever read. Reading it again today, I was dwelling a little bit on the line
"It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors."
Found that deeply insightful just now, and wanted to share it.

To boldly show

Interesting ... Found old episodes from Star Trek, Twilight Zone and a bunch of shows I've never seen. Wow!

Video - TV Classics on CBS


Sunday, February 24, 2008

Reality

I was over at someone's house tonight, and one of the guys there was watching television - something I haven't done in years. I was initially curious, then amused, then left extremely disturbed at the sights I saw on TV - you see when I last saw a TV show, reality television was still not 'in'. There were a couple of shows which were trying it, but it had not really caught on as a 'fad' i guess. But now, there are entire channels devoted to reality shows. It was probably a similar reaction to what our parents might have felt when MTV came on the screen - "They are now showing this new rock n stone music on TV!" - but I definitely felt old watching these new shows to which I have nothing in my experience to compare them to and feel comfortable watching them,

anyway, this led to a series of thoughts on the natural tendency to do good in the average individual (note : the average individual who will serve as a test bed for these theories is myself, for want of a better guinea pig). question: where does the human mind draw the line on decent/indecent, good/bad and so on? these moral 'boundaries' we have in our head - how malleable are they? There was certainly a time in my life, when I thought using swear words was wrong. Then was a time with swear words in every sentence. But now I feel like I have reached the stage where it is ok to use them every once in a while, but not in front of strangers or people who you think might be offended. But today there are things in life which I think are loathsome (crazy sexual exchanges, murder, crazy sexual exchanges with a murderer, etc) but maybe there might come a day when these things are acceptable to me, or the people around me. maybe someday a very terry pratchett-like assassins' guild might form and instruct children on the correct approach to murder (ie. without being on the receiving end of such an instruction).

so the point is, is there a line which no man will ever cross? after watching TV shows today, my answer has to be a no.

next question: is man essentially bad, and wants to be good? or vice-versa?

by "man" here, i refer to the intuitive notion of the soul of the average person (you or me). now, as for me, i think i am essentially good. but how much of that is me convincing myself because I have such an endemic feeling that being a "good" person is important for my own happiness, therefore I will never think of myself as being a bad person. so, i guess it is impossible to answer that question about myself, simply because no amount of introspection is going to allow me a perfectly unbiased standpoint from which to judge myself.

hence, i choose a third person - the proverbial "One" in a conversation - now,

... story deleted because it was way too disturbing ....

Just to give an idea as to how bad it was, it ends with ...

And then Anna calls - she's pregnant. The child is his because she didn't fuck anyone else, you lying bastard. And I'm keeping it too! (Conscience: fucked)

This is the final straw. Neo is back in Paris ... this time with a loaded weapon ....


Reader: NO!
Author (ME): Obviously not, I wouldn't allow one of my charactes to kill a pregnant woman. How crazy do you think I am? One probably kills himself and there ends my tale of woe for our lonely survivor on the reality TV show called life. The question still remains? Was One essentially good? Did he just have a tough time and the lying, fighting, and killing was just a result of an essentially good person having a hard time of life? That's for you to decide, dear Reader, for I am sleepy now. And wish to ...

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Global Village?

An interesting article by Douglas Adams back in the early 90's (from the looks of it) on the emergence of the internet, and the complete bewilderment with which people at the time greeted it. Cheers to the future!

DNA/How to Stop Worrying and Learn to Love the Internet
But the biggest problem is that we are still the first generation of users, and for all that we may have invented the net, we still don't really get it. In 'The Language Instinct', Stephen Pinker explains the generational difference between pidgin and creole languages. A pidgin language is what you get when you put together a bunch of people - typically slaves - who have already grown up with their own language but don't know each others'. They manage to cobble together a rough and ready lingo made up of bits of each. It lets them get on with things, but has almost no grammatical structure at all.

However, the first generation of children born to the community takes these fractured lumps of language and transforms them into something new, with a rich and organic grammar and vocabulary, which is what we call a Creole. Grammar is just a natural function of children's brains, and they apply it to whatever they find

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Hoe Hoe Hoe

[Sung to the tune of Bitches Ain't Shit]

See, Brian Greene meets these bitches right?
And all dem hoes be really tight
He tells dem about his groovy string
But all they want is the bling bling

In case y'all niggaz wanna know where I get my groove thang : its this shit [muthafucka]

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Hedgehogs

Had an excellent conversation just now about education, the future, stories, comics, literature, and the final consensus was ..

Roald Dahl is awesome!

and Pratchett, of course, but we didn't talk about it.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Neusis

Just discovered this wonderful website with Euclid's Elements. Have wanted to read this for a while now, and just read a few pages of it tonight. Discovered an interesting idea called "Neusis", or fitting a line into a diagram.

The operation is thus : You take a line segment of a fixed length (say the radius of a circle) and mark out it's length on a straight edge. You then move the straight edge and use the specific length to make another line segment of that same length. This is used in a very intuitive proof of trisection of a given angle (see link below) - ie. Given an angle, to find another angle whose measure is exactly one-third the measure of the original angle.

Apparently, this process of Neusis cannot be justified using Euclid's postulates and is thus outside the scope of the Elements. Seems reasonable as it is does intimately depend on the measurement of a length, but what's neater is that a mathematician named Whatzel actually proved that neusis would be unjustified under Euclid's axioms. This rabid quest for correctness in all respects is what makes this stuff so exciting!

Euclid's Elements, Introduction
I'm creating this version of Euclid's Elements for a couple of reasons. The main one is to rekindle an interest in the Elements, and the web is a great way to do that. Another reason is to show how Java applets can be used to illustrate geometry. That also helps to bring the Elements alive.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I Cthulhu

Crazy expedition to find life in extreme places of the world. Reminds me of H.P. Lovecraft's "At the Mountains of Madness" for some reason. The extreme biting cold, with the discovery of a terrifying form of life hitherto unknown to man :)

NASA - Extremophile Hunt Begins
Antarctica's Lake Untersee, fed by glaciers, always covered with ice, and very alkaline, is one of the most unusual lakes on Earth. The upper 70 meters of lakewater is so alkaline "its pH is like strong CloroxTM," says expedition leader Richard Hoover of NASA's Marshall Space Flight Center. "And to make it even more interesting, the lake's sediments produce more methane than any other natural body of water on our planet. If we find life here, it will have important implications."

Strange Fruit

It was Christmas Eve. Hassan walked out of the barn and was immediately struck by the biting cold. The cold reminded him of the time of year, and he grinned to himself looking forward to the warm meal his mother would have set out for him when he returned. This made him quicken his pace a notch, and he soon found himself out in the open fields whistling to himself. The last dregs of a red sunset were disappearing behind the clouds and an involuntary shudder ran through him. He had imagined a sound as he left the barn - a short, quick whisper maybe - but he quickly reprimanded himself for his silly daydreams. He was a dreamer - he made no bones about it - but to scare yourself half to death when alone on a winter's night, now that was foolishness!

But soon his thoughts turned towards home, and he felt warm inside. His mother would be happy when he gave her the money. She had been against his decision to work at the barn. "The white folk don't care for us", she said. "Slaves we were, and slaves we will be". That was her favourite saying these days. When father died, she couldn't get herself to accept that it was just fate that snatched him away from her - she suspected the villagers of foul play, and nothing Hassan said would change her mind. "You watch out for yourself, boy", she said "Never trust noone". Another of her mottoes.

But this would change her mind. Ten whole dollars! He could buy grain, and the blanket for little Tabitha, and still have some spare for a rainy day! Even mother could not say that the "white folk" had not been generous to Hassan. The old couple had been somewhat reluctant to accept him, mind you, but Hassan had pleaded his case well and the old lady had finally relented - letting him wash the animals and clear out the barn for a few dollars. Her husband was getting far too old to do it himself, she said, and who was going to find out? Although it was forbidden for black people to work in the village, she had smuggled him into the barn in the darkness and paid him well for his labours. Hassan was never one to forget a favour, and he thanked the old lady in his heart, and prayed for her happiness.

A stray cat ran across his path, and he thought he saw a silhouette in the distant trees. He crossed himself and muttered a prayer for his safety as he entered the patch of trees. The trees has been planted there by the villagers in order to keep the "vermin" outside of their wonderful village. "The government may want this filth to live, but I'll be damned if we allow it to steal our jobs and our land", the local Mayor had said, to raucous applause from the grinning mob. Hassan grimaced at the memory. He had been there when Mayor Stone had spoken to the village - hiding in the bushes in the hope of seeing Liz in the crowd. Liz! What a smile she had! He had seen her many times as she played with her friends on the borders of the forest. He had even left her a few flowers one day, and found a note in it's place the next day - she had thanked him! Of the joy! But then he had heard the Mayor's speech and was filled with disgust. It was no secret that the Mayor and most of his followers had been in the infamous KKK in their time. Even though the organisation was outlawed by the Federal government, people like Stone had continued to use their power to rally support for suppressing black freedom any way they could.

Hassan shook the snow from his head to clear away these dreadful thoughts. He was an optimist, he laughed to himself, and he hoped that someday he would be able to go upto Liz's parents and ask her hand in marriage. He was hard working, and a good person, so why not? But he knew in his heart of hearts that there was a fine line between optimism and daydreaming - and he was walking it.

As these thoughts ran through his head, he suddenly walked into a clearing. Strange, he thought to himself, I don't remember seeing this before - I must've taken a wrong turn somewhere. He turned to retrace his steps - and immediately knew something was amiss. The bushes around the clearing were alive with people .. and hunting dogs. Up ahead he saw a torch and a hood beside it. "Who's there?", he cried, knowing that he did not want to hear the answer. "It talks", someone said, and the rest sniggered. There were at least ten of them, Hassan figured. "Please let me go my way, I mean no harm!", he said, as his heartbeat quickened. "No harm?" said the person under the white hood as he walked out into the open. "Did it say, `NO harm?' Why you lying, stealing piece of shit!", he said, slapping Hassan across the face. Mother was right to warn me about the job, he said to himself. "I didn't steal nothin'", he said, "I was paid for my work is all". But he knew this was futile. "Since when are rats like you allowed to work in our fair town?", the man in the hood said, as a murmur ran through the crowd. "You steal from hard working folk and then lie about it!", the man said, as he grabbed the money from Hassan's pockets. How did he know it was there? I must've been followed from the barn, Hassan thought, remembering the quiet whispers.
The man continued to talk, as Hassan let his gaze roam over the crowd. What he first thought was ten people, was in reality, closer to twenty. Strong lad though he was, and an eternal optimist, he knew he was not going to be able to brave his way out of this one. They had him cornered, and he knew it. The others saw the fear and resignation in his eyes, and they knew they had their prey. ".. and working in our homes, feeding our cattle?!", the white hood was talking now. Hassan looked back at him, in the vain hope that he wasn't being asked a question. He had taken off the hood now - it was Stone. He should've known. ".. and I've seen him stare at my daughter, the lecherous pig!". Liz's father was in the crowd too, apparently. Hassan's head was reeling. He thought he was going to faint from the fear, but as he thought of his mother waiting for him at home, his little sister, his dead father, and all the good and bad things in his life - he felt a cold, calm anger well up inside him. He had to stop this madness. He looked around for a weapon, and saw a pitchfork in the hands of a drunken man to his left. As swift as he could, he lunged at it with all his might, grabbing thin air. The bastard had moved just in time, and Hassan fell to the ground.

Stone walked upto him, and placed his foot on Hassan's neck, pressing down slowly but surely. Bending down low, he said, "I hope your mama sees you tomorrow". Standing up, he signaled to the dogs, saying "He's all yours boys - make sure you eat your fill". And then the beasts converged on him. Looking up, all he could see was the mad look on their faces. And all he could think of was Tabitha in a new blue blanket.


Broken

He sat hunch-backed on the rocks watching the waves wash over the shore, the evening sun refracted through the shards of his broken life. His eyes rested on the gun that lay between his feet. Emotions washed over him - guilt, anger, and even a mild sense of satisfaction at the look in her face when it happened. It almost made it worth it. Almost ..

The gun was cool now, having had its day in the sun. He cradled it in his palm, letting its deadly weight play on his nerves. It mocked him - all his life he had been the golden boy - the straight-A student, phd, great job, beautiful wife - yes, life had made a mockery of him, and the gun was the only thing that had the nerve to say it to his face. It was as though his entire life had been one big charade leading up to this very day - to find her naked, writhing body in bed ...

He had done the right thing. He knew it. The gun knew it.

It felt cold against his temple. And then he heard the sirens ringing ...